Sanity Search

I just feel so incredibly weird lately.

My priorities in life have changed drastically within a mere week, and it's daunting; it's unfamiliar, and I don't know how to react quite yet. Time is such a strange, wonderful, phenomenal notion. There are moments when two weeks feels like it will last an eternity, and then there are those sporadic instances when you reflect on the years that have recently passed and wonder how it could have all happened so quickly. In our rudimentary daily living, nothing seems like it's blazing past you relentlessly. You're simply making motions throughout life, deciding to do one thing instead of another, existing as you desire and under your own regulations. You are playing the most important game you ever will, and every instant of every day means something, determines something, changes something. Seconds are powerful portions of time.
Right now, my life is glacially drifting by, leaving me without answers and without security. I'm being forced to sit back as I watch people in my life, whom I care for deeply, destroy their psyches and subsequently their happiness. It is literally the most disheartening situation I have ever had to witness. And it's messing with my mind, I know it. My view of humanity is so skewed and clouded with skepticism that I can barely concentrate on the beauty of life outside of people. I think I may go on hiatus from humans for a bit and bring myself back to nature, back to my sanity.

"Someday, somewhere - anywhere, unfailingly, you'll find yourself, and that, and only that, can be the happiest or bitterest hour of your life." - Pablo Neruda