Thoughts;

"The sun itself sees not 'til heaven clears;"
I want to know what it feels like to believe in something so passionately that it has the power to take over my entire being. I want to feel the waves crash beneath my feet, leaving me with certainty. And I want to experience a love that most can only dream of.
I want so many seemingly unobtainable things, yet these desires are some of the only mechanisms propelling me forward through a world filled with an unfathomable amount of pessimism and atrophy. Perhaps our inmost aspirations are the fuel behind our actions. The longing to succeed and make every individual wish eventually come true is over powering to the point of actually working. We trick ourselves into believing that there will always be positive results simply to keep us going through life.
There is so much mystery and wonder in the world, and so few of us take the time to explore the possibilities life provides. The simple sight of watching a dolphin jump from the water, in an attempt to feel the sun on its skin and let the crisp air fill its lungs, is enough to make me feel alive beyond the conceptual realm of the living. It makes me feel alive in the sense of existing beyond breathing and thinking. It gives me hope that perhaps death isn't the end; our souls have to continue on while our bodies are left behind. The human heart has too many secrets to let death be the final word, and instead, they are hidden in the wind and the trees and the ocean. Our mannerisms are present in every person we have come into contact with, and we have left behind bits and pieces of ourselves simultaneously. We live through nature in this respect. We allow ourselves to float on, always a lasting collection of memories. And that is beautiful in and of itself.

Beating Hearts Baby;

There is a boy that makes my heart beat abnormally fast. One who leaves me short of breath and at a loss for words, nervous and confident at the same time. One who brings out the best in me, and one who puts up with my antics.
There is a boy I would spend all of my time with had I the choice. A boy that makes just as many strange faces as I do, and laughs at the right time.
There is a boy who kisses my nose, holds my hand, and scratches my back, all without request. One who listens to what I have to say, looks into my eyes, and learns from my mannerisms.
This boy makes me laugh, smile, sing, and dance. This boy couldn't be sweeter if he tried. This boy entered my life on a whim, by complete chance. Probability was on our side.
This boy is beyond intelligent, adorable by far, and just crazy enough to be okay.
This boy is all mine. <3

Numb;

The most powerful feelings are those that cannot be formed into the right words or phrases. Instead, these feelings lie deep within the self to contemplate, convert and eventually cope with. Those that fall victim to trying to manifest some unconventional way to describe such feelings and thoughts are, in essence, attempting the impossible. Through tragedy and triumph, our emotions cascade themselves along a blank canvas of new ideas and experiences, all the while leaving us to peril with the unfortunate knowledge of no escape.